1/31/2017 0 Comments AnorexiaI wanted to do a little extra blog post talking about this, as thoughts about it swirl forth. I was anorexic for 6-7 years when I was a teenage and into my early 20s, and it was a rough time. You don't really think of anorexia as something you survive, not the way of surviving cancer because it is an illness that you are inflicting on yourself, but it is something that people don't always survive. You are literally starving your body and every organ in it, which can and does cause some pretty serious damage. I still feel like some of things wrong with me are because of this time.
So, I should probably explain the why. Why I became anorexic in the first place. After multiple deaths, or near deaths in my family I felt like I had no control and along with that my first love thought I looked prettier the skinnier I got (I was never overweight, he was just anorexic also and because of this you end up with a distorted view of things). In these very uncertain times and with high school slapped into the mix I felt like I need to control something so I controlled my weight or lack there of. I would eat probably about 800 calories a day and walk for miles and I mean miles at least 2 as a minimum because that was distance it took me to walk home from school everyday but normally it was more than that because I would also walk around with friends. Toward the end of it I was fainting so much and blacking out that I became terribly sick. I had to go into the doctors for malnourishment and dehydration at one point because it was so bad. I was so skinny that at 5'7" I was having to wear children's clothing, the pants I had to wear were too big (because if I didn't get teen or adult sizes they weren't long enough) but I could actually fit into shorts for kids more comfortably. I couldn't see past my distorted image of myself for a very long time. It wasn't until I started to go out with my boyfriend that this started to change. My hips would fall out of place all of the time because I lacked the muscle needed to keep them in place (which was so ridiculously painful). I had to crawl up the stairs, and once I started eating food and I actually gained muscle in my legs so fast from just walking up and down the stairs that I ended up with stretch marks (cocoa butter seriously fixed them). All and all this is a pretty important, when I was growing up my perception of what was beautiful was distorted by the media (as it is for everyone), and I want you to know that most of the girls are photoshopped and if they aren't photoshopped they are very unhealthy. I have realized how badly I was abusing my body. The only one that I have and how truly important eating food is (not just any food but healthy food). Please don't ever try to cope with tragic life events the way I did. I can honestly say that being anorexic did not help, it just made my life worse and I was the cause of that. If you are anorexic or have any eating disorders or even if you just don't feel good about yourself please find someone that will help you. It is very important to me that you do because I don't want to see anyone suffer the way I did. It is important to love yourself, and take care of yourself! All I want is for people to be healthy, because being healthy is a great place to be! I am much happier now that I am here, and proud of myself. I am glad that I found someone who helped me through being anorexic and that I was strong enough to overcome it!
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My mesmers outfit! Aurora Helm Winter's Presence Aristocrat's Coat Exalted Gloves Cabalist Legs Occam's Footwear Wings of Ascension Hronk's Spire And the dyes are Celestial, Glint's Isolation, and Golden Sheen. I wasn't sure what would be a good name for this one XD. Maybe something with Frost in it XD (I bet Cisco would have the perfect name (From the Flash)). Wraith Masque Stately Epaulets Whisper's Secret Robes Exalted Gloves Stately Leggings Ascalonian Performers Shoes (I have the Quaggan Killer Whale Backpack on but you can't really see it XD) Cobalt And the dyes are Ghost, Celestial, Pastel Lime. The Battle Prepared Scholar!
I had to show the back too because the way the glow came through the backpiece was really cool! Reading Glasses Radiant Mantle Seer Coat Seer Gloves Whisper's Secret Leggings Masquerade Boots Desert Rose Royal Ascalonian Greatsword (the sword will glow blue at in game night time) And the dyes are Fling, Celestial, and Ghost. My love of gathering started here, in Wintergrasp, it was the it place to be to gather ore, fish, and crystallized life, fire ect... I would fly around in circles for hours gathering, fishing and killing mobs for these things, while talking to people on vent :). I have a lot of happy memories doing that. I actually saw an alliance while taking these screenshots, you can see them a little bit at the bottom in bird form. At first I had that "Ugh they are taking my node" feeling and then I realized we could share now and went ahead and got it too. I love that change so much. The place we'd battle for is almost hauntingly empty now. Still ominous as ever with ICC looming over head. I remember when everyone would go to the battles, just so we could get into the raid. They were full of people with siege and fighting everywhere. It was fun and then if your side was victorious it would be time to find a raid group. I always liked this raid, it was short and sweet, and I used to make the rogues tank the trash if the tanks were taking too long XD. That was scary but we did it! They almost got 1 shot every time they got hit, which is kind of funny now. I remember my heart almost stopping back then though XD. Since it hasn't been a thing for awhile I thought I wouldn't be able to get the achievement for kill them all at one time but then I realized I could pull all of them because getting hit in the back by them doesn't hurt anymore lol. I did the raid because we owned it when I was taking screenshots and I got the mount :DDD. Eeeep that is great I've always wanted this mount as I've loved mammoths for a long time (I just think they are cool but I don't stand of quest givers with them because that is just mean). One more mount checked off my list and another good memory in Wintergrasp! I knew there was a reason I always loved you :DD. I went to Wintergrasp for this blog and it bared gifts!! I am very excited about finally getting this mount!!! My Blood Elf looks so tiny on it you can barely see her! I wanted this mount for so long because I was terrible at making gold in game even though I gathered all the time I just put in the guild bank or gave it to people in my guild. So I was never able to buy the riding mount in WotLK, so having this drop is amazing I finally got the mount I wanted so bad!
1/29/2017 0 Comments Raptor Kitty InspirationIn real life I am a pretty silly person. It is kind of hard to describe in just words, I should really start taking videos. I like to be silly and pretend to be a raptor and a kitty. So it seemed like the perfect mashup to make into a cute little stuffed animal (that happens to really look like a pokemon XD, I didn't even realize until someone said something about that, I kind of want to see if they would make her into one for real). I run around acting silly and when my hands are up in a claw like shape that means I am set to attack. Usually I am attacking my bf by bringing my arms in close and poking him with the claw hands. Pretty sure I look like a complete derp but that's who I am XD. I really love her and the colors I picked. The idea just kind of popped into my head and I thought of the World of Warcraft raptors that are in the bright colors, which inspired her bright colors. Plus I've been on a happy colors kick and these are some pretty happy colors! I like to nuzzle my bf and sometimes I do pat pat pats, like a kitty fluffing the ground before they lay on it. That and I have a strong desire to curl up in peoples laps but as a human I don't fit... I really think that must be super comfy though (and warm, what I really want is that warm!). I always loved dinosaurs (I even had some on one of my birthday cakes and I actually used to watch educational videos about them because I loved them so much lol), and of course its hard not to love cats. They are adorable and funny. So what better to be than a raptor kitty? I couldn't think of anything, and I feel like my adorable little amigurumi proves how awesome that idea is :D.
1/28/2017 0 Comments Wrist PainWrist pain is pretty common for gamers because of putting a lot of pressure on a small area of the wrist. My gloves are one way to help with that as they provide a cushion to prevent that from happening as much. I will put a button at the bottom that takes you to them but I really wanted to talk about some of the other things you can do too. It took me a long time to really figure out why I was getting pain and what I could do about it. One of the other things I noticed was that my shoulder and wrist were hurting. Finally I realized that because of being on a laptop and having no chair arms to support my arms that it was making my shoulder hurt and putting more pressure on my keyboard wrist. What I did to fix it was put a pillow under my elbow to help with that, and the pain has gotten a lot better. One of the other things I realized was that my left wrist was weak. My right hand is my dominate hand so it is stronger than my left one. This weakness was causing me pain because I just didn't have enough muscle to do the things I was doing so I started lifting weights to try and improve the strength in my left wrist/arm. It has been helping and I plan to look for even better exercises to strength it more as I go along (and as a side note working out is really good for you so it is helping my body overall! Make sure you are doing the exercises correctly though because doing them wrong could really hurt you and also make sure that you know what is wrong with your wrists before doing this as some exercises could hurt it more). There are various stretches you can do as well the ones I know are for wrist tendinitis but different conditions call for different stretches, so if you have really bad wrist pain make sure to see a doctor to find out what is wrong and what you can do for it. Basically to sum it up make sure that your wrist is in a good position while using the computer or just pushing your wrist hard on hard surfaces or it can cause you pain. If something feels off take the time to find a solution to it. Sometimes little fixes can make a big difference :). The button takes you to the gaming gloves section of my shop! CategoriesAll Crochet Guild Wars 2 League Of Legends Life Overwatch World Of Warcraft 1/27/2017 0 Comments Lunar FestivalMy favorite holiday events are the ones where you don't have to do a lot to get rewards XD. I love the ones where there are flightpaths I take and while I am on the flightpath I do other things, like crocheting. These always feel extra rewarding to me because I am able to do something else and get rewarded in game! Along with feeling like I get double rewards, I am a collector. I love collecting companions and mounts especially, but I also like collecting toys. Each time there is a festival usually a toy or companion is added, and I look forward to that! Someone would kill me while I was writing this. I never understood the point of killing afk people, I still have no idea what the person gets out of it but whatever. What can you do. Like myself there is of course a mob of people waiting around the vendors to look at the new toys and anything else that they have. There were some skeletons on the ground and with that many Horde I was pretty scared XD. Lucky for me this time I lived!
I look forward to doing these events every year and even if there isn't something new or I have most of the items I can buy, I always buy companions. I've been hoarding them for awhile now, because I wanted to give some away and sell some of them. They may not be worth the most gold but I like doing the events so at least I get a little bit of a reward from doing them! Lunar festival isn't my favorite event but it is in my top three. Along with the Midsummer Fire Festival (I pretty much have to like this one as part of my name is in it XD), and Hallow's End my favorite holiday event! I look forward to them every year and I am glad they added some toys this year! 1/26/2017 0 Comments Dragon Gloves and Wrist WarmerPersonally I preferred the first version of dragon gloves (which are these ones) but other people didn't seem to like them as much as I did. I named them Become the Dragon because that's what they felt like and what I wanted them to be like. Going from being a normal glove into the dragon scales (that and personally I always think of the scales going in this direction as they would travel up the dragons body). I also feel like these ones would work better for gaming because the scales are at the bottom and less likely to get in the way. This was the first attempt at the other style but they weren't quite right. The thumb hole was too large and they just didn't have the right flow, I put them but wasn't happy with them so I ended up redoing them. This was the updated version the 2.0 if you will. I think this one has a better flow and on top of that I really like that I added a layer of scales in the other color, most of them being in the azure but then having one row in blue. This helps with the flow I was lacking the other scales just kind of stopped once they hit the other color and it just didn't feel right. The scales are pretty thick so while I personally haven't tested them for gaming these ones have scales all the way around the palm so they could get in the way easily. If I was going to use some for gaming I would use the Become the Dragon ones. I always like having a lot of color options for people to choose from and it's neat to see what someone else would choose, and how they see the dragon. I think of reds but like my D & D dragons poster there are so many other colors that they could be. I pictured this one as a sea dragon, maybe somewhere inland with the lush greens around. Even though it is in cool tones it feels like a very happy glove :D. This one I also pictured as a sea dragon but maybe in the depths of the ocean where there isn't a lot of light. In the deep blue waters. I like to make up little stories about why they are the colors these two were both orders and I don't know the actual reasons behind the colors but the stories are fun regardless :D. After I made the dragon gloves it started getting cold here which was about the time that I realize I should make wrist warmers to keep my wrists warm while crocheting (my hands are always cold but in winter they get so cold that sometimes it feels hard to move them and the wrist warmers helped a lot with that problem). I figured it would just be the end scales mainly showing and that they would look really pretty coming out of the bottom of the sleeves. These colors remind me of a flower more than a dragon but a pretty magenta dragon would be pretty cool maybe they would be a tiny little dragon one that goes from flower to flower. Like a fairy dragon I bet they would be beautiful (and adorable)!
1/25/2017 0 Comments Sylvari.The sylvari are probably my second favorite race. When I started playing beta they were the first race I wanted to try. My favorite are humans mainly because I really like the racial gear My favorite part is that they glow at night. I always thought that was cool, the glow really gives being a plant person something special. They are very sweet derpy characters. I don't know how many times I've had "More violets less violence" stuck in my head. There is something about the race that is very kind and innocent (which probably has something to do with them being born adults). They have a certain child like feel to them because of their innocence. She may look adorable but really she is a badass. My guardian is my main pvp character, and I always knew she would be. Guardians reminded me of Paladins which was right up my ally. Sometimes I can't get over how epic this game looks. I love looking at this adorable little derp, she is one of my top 4 characters. Each of them having a different place for where I play them. Half of my top 4 characters are Sylvaris. One being my Guardian and the other being my Engineer :). Overall I think the Sylvari's are a very unique race and I wouldn't change them. They make me happy with how sweet and derpy they are. They are a wonderful race :).
1/24/2017 0 Comments What inspires me?So many things inspire me, but some of my main inspirations are Guild Wars 2, whenever I feel lost on how to finish an idea going into the game helps. It is so beautiful that just looking at the magnificent world they made gives me inspiration to finish whatever I was doing. Managed to get some good Christmas pictures before it went away in game XD. I think this one is pretty cool seeing the Wintersday stuff in the bottom right hand corner with the back wall of the city in the background and snow being made by Asura tec everywhere else. There is something really magical about the game and the people who did the art are just amazing :D. Another picture I really liked :3. One of the other things that really inspires me is music, especially instrumental. I love music with lyrics but for writing instrumental is the way to go. It helps me get lost in the story at hand and one of the things that is really cool about instrumental is that it tells whatever story you want. To each person it could mean something else heartbreak and tragedy or a beautiful love song or just being seeing the day in a magical way. There are so many more things that each song could mean to a person, but every time it will be uniquely their own depending on what story they put to it.
And history, like Ancient Impossible for example. There was an ancient boat that had its own court yard. That is so amazing I can't even express how truly wondrous I find that to be. People think that ancient people were super primitive but they weren't things just got lost in history. The stuff they did is truly magnificent and it inspires me. I mean if they were able to do all of these amazing things with very little equipment think of what I can do? Looking at other peoples art especially people who do realism well. I can sit there and marvel at all of the small details that they put in and all of the time and effort it took to make this masterpiece. I've at least tried a bunch of different types of art, going to the art classes when I was in high school were some of the best times for me. I loved leaving with oil pastels on my hands it relaxed me and made my day all around better. So when I look at other peoples art I think of the different things I learned the little details that end up being a much bigger thing that you would realize at the first glace. Art is something that is pretty amazing especially when you can tell that the person puts a little bit of their heart and soul into each piece. Food inspires me, while I'm not a big fan of making food for myself, I make food for my boyfriend and it is like another form of art, you just eat it at the end XD. Since I don't eat meat I smell everything to determine whether it will go well together or not with my ratatouille nose XD. There are so many other things that inspire me, but I think I will end on a very important one. Kindness. Kindness is something may get over looked or not thought about that much but it is a big deal. I had an asthma attack in this office that I needed paperwork from and it made me really dizzy, I fell to the ground grabbing a cup a pens as I went down (I tried to grab onto something it just happened to be the least ideal thing I could grab lol). They went flying everywhere probably something like in a movie and had to rush out into the cold so I could get some air. The people I needed the paperwork were supposed to help me with health related stuff but didn't care, but most of the people who were also waiting in the office did. They asked what they could do to help, gave me some coffee (which always works best for my asthma) and waited with me to make sure everything was okay. One even called 911 because they were so worried. That moment has stuck with me. It is a really powerful thing to have someone be kind to you especially when you feel completely down and out. It inspires me I even have a little reminder of it where I normally sit. They could have forgotten about me and that moment and that would be okay but it will live in my memory forever. It gave me hope when I felt like I had so little. Never underestimate kindness what may seem little to you may mean the world to someone else, like it did for me. 1/23/2017 0 Comments Lich King KittyHe was actually a custom order that was never bought, but I ended up liking the idea so much that I had to make him. Plus my boyfriends favorite character is the Lich King so he was kind of like a present to him (although he mainly uses him as a pillow lol). Who better to become the next Lich King than a cat? I can't think of anyone XD. This also turns him from being crazy to cuddly and just a little frosty! It took me a long time to figure out how to do some of the pieces, most the of the stuff I make I end up taking apart a couple of times because its just not right and for me it has to be perfect :). I make him so that his little helm comes off and the cloak does too, this way if you wanted to adjust him you could or even if you wanted to have the helm/cloak sitting next to him you could do that. Its hard to see in the pictures of him but there is also a little strap in the front that is holding his armor together and he has a cute little tail in the back, you can just barely see it peeking out in the picture on the left side. I didn't think the Lich King could be cute but I think I managed to take the idea of the Lich King and turn him into a cute snuggly little kitty :D Also it has a nice ring to it if you sing "Lich King Kitty" XD. CategoriesAll Crochet Guild Wars 2 League Of Legends Life Overwatch World Of Warcraft |
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