12/14/2016 0 Comments Happiness?I've been thinking about happiness a lot lately. What is happiness? Can it be infinite? What makes me happy? And I've come to realize that happiness is a lot of little things. I know I talked about joy in the little things but I didn't talk about the real importance of this. I've had some points in my life where I've been in really dark places, times where I haven't even wanted to be here anymore, and where I've felt hopeless. Even some where I've felt like I was dying (was I was anorexic I basically was). Which brings me to the importance of happiness, and what it is. For a long time I couldn't even fathom being the place I am in now. In a relationship with someone who truly loves, in a house that doesn't make me ill (my parents house was awful between my moms smoking, the probable mold, and stuff everywhere (they are hoarders) it was an awful environment health wise, I really wish they would leave/give up some of their crap). I wouldn't say I've been feeling great with the stuff with my tooth/jaw but It is so so so many times better than where I was. So even though things aren't always great they are still light years ahead of where I was. These are a picture of Gigi's Cupcakes, I never get tired of looking at them XD (they are my worst addiction). So with where I was in mind, I had to figure out what made me happy, what I wanted. I knew gaming made me happy but it also didn't make me feel whole. Only gaming was fun but not fulfilling. So what else was there for me? I liked talking to people (and I really enjoyed streaming, it is still something I want to get back to once I can talk for longer periods of time). The tooth/jaw stuff took a lot of the joy out of that because of the pain (and was starting to condition me to associate streaming with pain, which is all kinds of bad). I am a weird person, I am an anti-social, social person (I know that seems like a complete oxymoron but I don't know it works out for me lol). While I like talking to people, I don't like doing stuff with people as much. I'm kind of a loner I like doing stuff on my own, while talking to people (which streaming worked perfectly for this). That makes me happy. I do this normally because I have a goal in mind, like getting all of the achievements in World of Warcraft, or all of the legendaries in Guild Wars 2. At some point along this journey out of my pit of despair, I realized how much I loved making things, I knew that I loved this when I was little but there was a reawakening for me a renaissance. It really happened when I got to see how much joy I was able to bring people, how happy they were with what I made them and how much it helped them (like the gaming gloves and wrist protectors). The point of me telling you this is that it is important to find your happiness. If you know what that is, that is amazing! If you don't, if you feel lost, helpless, or alone. It will pass, and you can and will get out of that place. It is important to take the time to find what makes you happy and what makes you whole. There are many other things that make me happy but these thing are the ones I find myself going back to over and over again. CategoriesAll Crochet Guild Wars 2 League Of Legends Life World Of Warcraft
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