4/17/2017 0 Comments Don't listen to the DemonFor a long time I thought my mind was just a jerk, I really did I was like why are you doing this to me?? Why would I treat myself like this when I can't fathom treating others this way, it took me a really long time to separate myself from thoaw demona. I used to picture it as a werewolf or vampire that I was haunted by and that would try to drag me down into the darkness and despair and I thought that was me. But it wasn't, it was whispers from all of the bad things that happened in my life. We can get so lost and wrapped up in the bad things that have happened that they become a new entity, and sometimes we can only really realize how haunted we were by it once we have a chance to step back and see it from someone else's perspective. I personally have carried around a lot of baggage stuff that was too heavy to lift at some points, so I just stayed stuck with it. Waiting for a kind soul to come along and help me pick it up.
The truth is until you separate yourself from these abusive thoughts that you cannot really deal with it, because when you believe you are the abuser you can't get away from that. You are stuck with yourself, so you have to let that light out inside yourself and believe in yourself. You have to trust in the idea that it isn't you and that things can change, that you can change your mind because it is your own and not an accumulation of those bad thoughts. It is easy to get conditioned by the bad things that you hear, especially if you hear them over and over again, but just because it is said many times doesn't give it validity. The truth is there regardless of whether it is known or not and you have to give yourself a chance to feel those good things and to realize all of the wonderful things about yourself. No matter what, you have something to offer the world that is beautiful, honest, and needed. Give yourself the chance to find out what that is.
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